This is a tough post to press 'send' on.
This year I had zero goals. I think if I had any they would have been totally shot to shit anyway.
I did finish endurorama at the mooch, which for me was a big deal. I'm so outta shape at this point finishing any ride is a big deal. Cramped up both quads and a calf halfway thru but finished.
I was going to post a new thread, but why not do it here since its a check in.
I'm battling a loss of passion for riding right now. I have always had a busy job, and just took a new one (started on Monday) but my hours at work will always seem to be insane. Between kids (my son is going thru some issues right now which has been tough on both the wife and myself), a demanding career, long commuting hours on top of that, and little time to sleep more than five or six hours a night as it is, I'm losing motivation to cut what little sleep I get short for my either 5am rides or my 9pm rides. I feel like I have been fighting the good fight for a while now, but I'm just beat and sometimes don't even want to look at my bike much less ride it. Haven't touched my bike since endurorama, and don't when the next time will be - maybe Sunday?
Sorry to be a downer, but needed to vent/share. I've lost riding passion before and came back to it, but I am just hitting a wall. Lost my masochist touch I guess. Or just hate being so outta shape. It's tough to ride like I know I can when my body can't do what i need it to do.
This year I had zero goals. I think if I had any they would have been totally shot to shit anyway.
I did finish endurorama at the mooch, which for me was a big deal. I'm so outta shape at this point finishing any ride is a big deal. Cramped up both quads and a calf halfway thru but finished.
I was going to post a new thread, but why not do it here since its a check in.
I'm battling a loss of passion for riding right now. I have always had a busy job, and just took a new one (started on Monday) but my hours at work will always seem to be insane. Between kids (my son is going thru some issues right now which has been tough on both the wife and myself), a demanding career, long commuting hours on top of that, and little time to sleep more than five or six hours a night as it is, I'm losing motivation to cut what little sleep I get short for my either 5am rides or my 9pm rides. I feel like I have been fighting the good fight for a while now, but I'm just beat and sometimes don't even want to look at my bike much less ride it. Haven't touched my bike since endurorama, and don't when the next time will be - maybe Sunday?
Sorry to be a downer, but needed to vent/share. I've lost riding passion before and came back to it, but I am just hitting a wall. Lost my masochist touch I guess. Or just hate being so outta shape. It's tough to ride like I know I can when my body can't do what i need it to do.




