The unofficial has become Official
I stepped on the weight measuring tool and registered a new high 260.3 🙁
Depression has set in. Many of the simple things like putting socks on or tying shoes has become a chore. I honestly don't know where I lost my mojo but it's lost indeed.
I desperately need to turn this around before my health starts to fail. I unfortunately already had high blood pressure before when I was fit, I can only imagine where I sit now.
With job changes in the last 2 years it seems instead of getting easier as I get older it has only gotten more stressful. Eating when I can find time to jam food down my face which leads to shity choices. Alcohol has become a habit which is not good for someone with addictive personality. Bicycles have always been my addiction but not so much anymore.
Anyone that knows me knows I will do anything for anyone at the drop of a hat yet I can't seem to do for myself what needs to be done. I know exactly what needs to be done but as in past life change only happens under extreme circumstances.
So as last year I signed up for this fat50 and again I feel it was just a donation like SSaP was. I will make sure to at least show up if to only ride 10 miles of the fifty just to say I rode my bike.
Sorry for a depressing post but it's where I am at right now, and maybe putting this out there in a public forum will generate a positive reply that will hit home.
Thanks for following along
Mattyb